Today i am sad and more than a little angry!

I found out today that my baby has Lyme Disease :( So needless to say today is a stressful day for me!

Now I will tell you the story....

About a year ago she woke up with a rash on her arm, (the typical bullseye), so I took her to the Dr. We had just moved to this state so this was the first time we were seeing this dr. They looked at it and told me it was a spider bite. I asked if he thought it could be Lyme, we were just living in the woods. He tells me NO give her Benedryl if the rash goes away then it is not Lyme. So I believe him give her the meds, and it does fade, but not go away. The Dr. calls a couple of days later to find out how she is,I tell him the rash faded and eventually went away with the meds but does he think we should test her for Lyme anyways. He says NO NEED its not Lyme!

So now a couple of months go by with no symptoms then she starts to get these really high fevers like 103-104 for days!!!!!! I take her to another dr. in the same practice she says its a virus it will go away! goes away but comes back in a couple of days, back to the drs again, this time they test for UTI sure enough its positive! go through a round of meds, but comes back again, another round of meds!! So I mention the bite again should we do a blood test? NO its just a UTI. I felt so bad for my baby going through this being sick and there is nothing I can do to help.

So at this point I have had it so I switch pediatricians. Now at this point she is complaining of her legs aching pretty often. Go to them tell them the whole story. They say ok lets test for UTI again sure enough its positive ANOTHER round of meds. I again mention the bite should she be tested? NO its just a UTI or a virus no need. AGGGGG so angry.

I switch Dr. again, this time I tell her the whole story again, she says if you think we should test her then lets. Sure enough yesterday the test came up positive for Lyme!! So the poor kid has had it over the period of a year and a half and they had never even tested her. I am LIVID!! I am with my kids 24/7 a dr. only sees them every 6 months. I think I know my kid better then them but they didn't listen! Finally I found one who listened to me and didn't think i was overreacting.

I have had a feeling in my gut that something was wrong!! But I believed these professionals and what they have been telling me. I was sadly mistaken. I totally feel like this is my fault I should of made them test her when I had a gut feeling about it.

Now we will try the 3 weeks of antibiotics. But I feel that she needs to see a specialist. it was not diagnosed for a long time. I know there can be long term effects from not getting treated soon enough. I hope that because she is a kid she is more resilient and can heal easier then adults. I am just praying that there will be no long term damage done to my poor baby! I feel like a horrible mother :(

I know that I should be thankful that I know what is wrong with her and that it can be treated, but I am her mom and of course I am VERY concerned. I know there are kids out there that have it A LOT worse off then my baby. So lets all send positive thoughts or prayers to those kids out there that need some extra lovin!

THE DAILY DOSE OF REALITY: Monday Minute - 7/26/2010

This week the co-host of The Monday Minute is Kmama

This week's questions are:

1. Who is your "what-if" person?

My what if person has to be my hubby! We have been together since we were 16 years old. I can't even imagine being with anyone else. We have done everything together and I wouldn't change a thing.

2. What is your nickname?

My nickname is Kel. boring I know. Or mom, mommy, ma, by my kids. Hubby usually responds to me by saying yes dear (just to drive me crazy I think)

3. If you could choose how you died, how would you like to die?

After I have lived a LONG and happy life peacefully.

4. If you could have named yourself, which name would you have picked?

i don't know maybe something a little more exciting then Kelly but not sure what.

5. Who were you named after or for what reason did your parents choose your name?
I wasn't named after anyone my sisters name starts with a K too so they wanted another K name.

My job!

This morning as I was sitting eating a bowl of cereal with my kids I sat there thinking that being a stay at home mom is probably one of the best jobs anyone could have.

I have recently been redoing my resume so that I can apply for a night job, but what to write about what I have been doing for the past 7 years. I know what I do is important and worthwhile, and challenging, but I feel like there are so many people out there that think being a SAHM is easy, or that anybody could do it. I struggle with this because I never even questioned staying home with kids to raise them! It was decided long before we even had kids that I would stay home till the kids were in school full time. Well that time is fast approaching Savanna will be in full day Kindergarten next sept. So i have one whole year to decide what I want to do for a job. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up! I guess all I'm good at is working with kids. Its what I have always done, from babysitting as a teenager, to working in a daycare center and being a nanny, so I guess that is what I will stick with. My wish is to own my own inhome preschool! But that is a long way away, but some day...


So this is for all you Stay at moms out there! If you knew this would be your job description would you still do it???

Job Title : MOM

JOB DESCRIPTION: Long term team players needed for challenging permanent work in an often chaotic environment. Candidates must possess excellent communication and organizational skills and be willing to work various hours, which will include evenings and weekends and frequent 24 hour shifts on call. Some overnight travel required, including trips to primitive camping sites on rainy weekends and endless sports tournaments in faraway cities. Travel expenses not reimbursed. Extensive courier duties also required.

RESPONSIBILITIES: This is for the rest of your life. Must be willing to be hated at least temporarily, until someone needs $5 to go skating. Must be willing to bite tongue repeatedly. Also, must possess the physical stamina of a pack mule and be able to go from zero to 60 mph in three seconds flat in case, this time, the screams from the backyard are not someone just crying wolf. Must be willing to face stimulating technical challenges, such as small gadget repair, mysteriously sluggish toilets and stuck zippers. Must screen phone calls, maintain calendars and coordinate production of multiple homework projects. Must have ability to plan and organize social gatherings for clients of all ages and mental outlooks. Must be willing to be indispensable one minute, and embarrassed the next. Must handle assembly and product safety testing of a half million cheap, plastic toys and battery operated devices. Must always hope for the best but be prepared for the worst. Must assume final, complete accountability for the quality of the end product. Responsibilities also include floor maintenance and janitorial work throughout the facility.

POSSIBILITY FOR ADVANCEMENT AND PROMOTION: Virtually none. Your job is to remain in the same position for years, without complaining, constantly retraining and updating your skills, so that those in your charge can ultimately surpass you.

PREVIOUS EXPERIENCE: None required, unfortunately. On-the-job training offered on a continually exhausting basis.

WAGES AND COMPENSATION: You pay them, offering frequent raises and bonuses. A balloon payment is due when they turn 18 because of the assumption that college will help them become financially independent. When you die, you give them whatever is left. The oddest thing about this reverse-salary scheme is that you actually enjoy it and wish you could only do more.

BENEFITS: While no health or dental insurance, no pension, no tuition reimbursement, no paid holidays and no stock options are offered, job supplies limitless opportunities for personal growth and free hugs for life if you play your cards right.

No more babies in my house:(

Today my baby turned 4 years old. I can't believe how fast it has gone by!! I am more than a little sad!!! She is not a baby anymore, she hasn't been for awhile but 4 seems like such a big kid. She will be starting preschool in the fall, and wants to take gymnastics, she is just going to be with me less and less :( I know I should be happy that she is well adjusted and happy and not afraid to do things without me but I wish i could freeze her this age forever!!

I feel like the past 2-3 years has gone by so fast. I am so thankful that I am able to stay home with my girls, so I don't miss anything I am with them ALL the time. I love it and wouldn't change a thing. Even though some days I could pull my hair out or need to have a drink after a hard day ;) I would do the same thing all over again. Maybe its time for another baby??? Not that Savanna or Kylie could be replaced with a new baby, but I miss the baby stage so much!!
I was looking at pictures of Savanna today when she was a baby my god I could just eat her up!!
So here is one picture from each year of Savanna's life up until now.

I am actually scared!!

My daughter came home from camp yesterday upset, it just didn't go her way she forgot her T-shirt to tye dye, she forgot her stuffed animal, and she didn't know the games all the other girls were playing.

These games I am talking about are those rhyming clapping games like Miss Mary Mack. Now she has never shown an interest in these before today, but one thing you need to know about my girl is that she is a perfectionist and wants to do everything right the first time she does something!! She was really upset that all the girls were playing and she couldn't because she didn't know how. I was surprised that this bothered her so much, usually stuff like this doesn't even phase her she is always like whatever. So last night I went on youtube to learn these songs and the motions and we practiced for over an hour! She can now do them (somewhat) she was very excited to go today to show the girls she could do it. I am apprehensive of this because I know how mean little girls can be. I hope they don't just blow her off because to them its not a big deal, after she worked so hard to learn so she could show them.

Me and a friend of mine were just talking about girls growing up nowadays. I feel like it is a lot harder now then it was when I was growing up. I feel like society wants them to grow up so much faster then they need to. The clothes they sell, the shows on TV, the music they want to listen to, the Internet, its all to much!! I want her to be my little girl still. Don't get me wrong she is but in a few years I am actually scared of what I will be dealing with.

Kids can be mean so much easier now. Its sounds crazy but true, the Internet gives these kids a lot of ways to let their opinions be known. From facebook to myspace to oovoo and formspring (these last 2 I really have no idea what they are but a friend of mine was telling me about them that her 12 year old is always on them) they can chat, video chat, leave anonymous comments about each other, and post pictures of god knows what for the whole world to see. I know there are ways to help your kids be safe on the Internet but you CANNOT watch them every second.
Also the kids figure out ways around the computer.


Worst of all is that this is only 1 of MANY things to worry about as they grow up!! From drama between girls, and boyfriends, and drugs, and sex, and school, and teaching your kids good morals, it is never ending!!! Oh man I better enjoy them while they are little and while they still want to play clapping games with me!!!


And guess what I have 2 girls I am SOOOOO screwed!!!!!!!!!!

So I am going to go play ponies with my little one before I find out how my older daughter made out at camp!

friend or Foe??

Walmart
Friend or foe???

I have very mixed feelings about this store. On the one hand you can get almost EVERYTHING you could need in one stop shopping, for low prices. But on the other hand everything they sell is from China. I do have problems with having everything you look at being made everywhere besides the US.

But today my issue is with Walmart making knockoff Girl Scout cookies. Thin Mints and tagalongs are 2 of the best selling kinds of cookies. I am a new Girl Scout Troop leader for my daughter. Now the Girl Scouts can only earn spending money by selling cookies once a year. This money is to fund their fun field trips, badges, uniforms, and camping trips. If Walmart is going to sell these cookies and people can get them anytime for cheap, then Troops will not be able to sell as many cookies as usual, and therefore will loose money and fun things.
The Girl Scout foundation is supposed to be for ANY girl who wants to join regardless of money or lack of! So Walmart is just taking away money from deserving girls all over the country. As if they don't have enough money already!!!!

Walmart is just the tip of the iceberg in this country, I feel like its all going downhill rapidly. Now don't get me wrong I wouldn't want to live in any other country but I feel like big changes need to be made. I think we need to stop outsourcing jobs, and having everything made in China (its all crap,anyways) So in order to do that we need to stop spending our money in places like Walmart, and Target.
But like I said either those stores are so convenient. So what to do make more work for me going to 5 dif stores or give more of my money over to Walmart and China!

I know I am ranting but the article I read just made me angry!!

Randomness!

Today we finally didn't do anything!! Lately we have been super busy.
I'm not complaining or anything we have done some really fun things this past week.

We went to the beach, to a friends to swim, to see fireworks, a big parade, on a friends boat!!!!! My kids are exhausted (who am i kidding I 'm the one that is tired). But it has been really nice to spend time with all the people that I love.
I realized that I have a great family that I wish I got to see more, but I am also very grateful for the friends that I have made here <3 I am truly blessed!

On a totally different subject, I have been wanting to get pregnant again for awhile, but just recently I have been thinking maybe we should not have another baby. My kids are finally getting to ages that we can go do a lot more with them we can just pick up and go . I would really LOVE to travel! I hope someday that I can show my kids the world. If I had another baby it would be that much longer before we could that. But who knows I will probably change my mind tomorrow and want another. who knows!! Anyways I just feel very lucky to have the life that I do.

So here's a question if you could travel to anywhere in the world where would you go?

here's my top 5
1. Italy
2. Egypt
3. Tahiti
4. Australia
5. Portugal

Sorry this post was so random I think the heat is getting to me and my brain is just jumping all over the place.

4th of JULY !

The Fourth of July is one of my favorite holidays behind Halloween, and Christmas. I am super excited for this year! We always spend this holiday with family :) Its not about presents or lots of preparation its just good old quality time with people that I love.

My niece is turning 14 on the 3rd so we will start our fun that day. We will get dinner probably get clamcakes , chowder, and doughboys YUM!!!!!! Then we will watch fireworks.
the next day we are off to the Bristol RI to see some more family and hit up a carnival and more fireworks. Then Mon. is the Bristol 4th of July parade!! If you have never been this is one MAJOR parade!!! I have been going my whole life. It is CRAZY its the oldest and biggest parade in the country. There are SO many people who go its great! here is a pic of just one little section of the street and its like this for MILES along the parade route.
So anyway I am excited (if you couldn't tell) I bought all kinds of things for the girls to wear, T-shirts, necklaces, light up wands, nail polish. I will post pics in my next post.

So I hope everyone has a fun, and safe 4th!

Lets celebrate the best country in the world!